I have heard back from all 3 jobs I applied for an all contained the word "unfortunately". Sad times. The first rejection email I was like... it's ok it's all part of the plan. The Second rejection email I was like... sad time, but it's all part of the plan. The Third rejection email and there was just tears. I so wanted to prove that my abilities to provide for my family far outweigh tidying the house, folding laundry, entertaining small children and dethawing average dinners.
So I'm digging deep. Way deep. I went for a walk, which I totally recommend when feeling rejected, in need of inspiration and strength. It got my brain juices flowing and it got me asking the question. What dreams am I really hoping for in my career? I started really digging into that question, what do I dream of doing?
As I walked a definitely realised I want my job to be about people, about helping people make a place, about helping create HOME. I whispered a few small prayers asking God to help... I wasn't even sure what to ask, but I just kept repeating "can you help God" and slowly the help started to be defined and settled my soul.
I spoke to my hubby for encouragement and validation that I am capable and that its right I keep putting myself out there. I also shared with my best friends my struggles and again was encouraged to keep on and that I am doing the right thing by putting my best foot out there and when the right time comes the right job will be there for me.
I'm not sure what the future holds for me and my career, but I am going to keep dreaming. I am going to still hope that there is a job out there I was meant for. That there is purpose out there I am meant for. and if I can't find it... maybe I will just have to make it for myself... some how.
So to re-cap to deal with this rejection I need to:
Go for more walks
Talk to God about what scares me and frustrates me
Talk to people I trust
Keep saying my dreams out loud.
So I dream that I will help build a space of hospitality, community and home for people in my community. That this places creates beautiful spaces for life celebrations, for resting, for learning, for building, for partying. That it will grow family, community and life! I want to open my own hotel one day. A fair-trade, eco-friendly, social enterprise Hotel. A hotel that takes care of the vulnerable, provides quality service and brings people of all cultures together. I want it to be a beautiful, comfy home away from home. And this is just the start of my dreams.
Monday, February 20, 2017
Sunday, January 29, 2017
Squash and Spinach Rissotto: Budget Food
One big step to help us move Southwest is to start saving money.... uuuuggg the never ending battle of money and not having enough of it :)
That being said one area we are trying to trim back on is our food shopping. It's so hard, especially now that I am home all the time on maternity leave to not just buy anything and everything. I almost give myself the excuse because we can't go out, due to having babies, that having more fancy food and sweets and treats is our RIGHT!
However, I think we can do better. I also am reading this FABULOUS book by Alicia Silverstone called the Kind Diet. All about eating Vegan and the great benefits of a plant based diet. WAIT! for all you anti-vegan or dinner MUST have meat peeps... I'm not going to go on a rant or try and convert you ... I just saying I was inspired by trying more meat free dishes... done!
All in all, one day I was trolling the internet and came across this recipe for Squash and Spinach Risotto... I had a spare squash and spinach that was day or two from going bad so I thought why not...
Click here for Squash and Spinach Recipe by Rachel Cotterill
WOW WAS I IMPRESSED.... with under 10 ingredients ... and nothing fancy (I actually just naturally had everything in the kitchen... which like never happens!!)... I even left out the parsley leaves and it still turned out fab...
even more so.... MY 2 YEAR OLD TODDLER LOVED IT! She told me "this is a yummy delicious dinner.. thank you mommy!" wait... WHAT!?!? We aren't arguing over dinner and bribing her with every sweet under the sun to get her to eat just 3 damn bits of dinner. HALLELUJAH JESUS!
this bad boy recipe is now on my regular list of eats....
BONUS: toddler loves, meat eating husband didn't complain, it used NORMAL, CHEAP ingredients, it took less than an hour to make, it's healthy and its VEGAN!!!
That being said one area we are trying to trim back on is our food shopping. It's so hard, especially now that I am home all the time on maternity leave to not just buy anything and everything. I almost give myself the excuse because we can't go out, due to having babies, that having more fancy food and sweets and treats is our RIGHT!
However, I think we can do better. I also am reading this FABULOUS book by Alicia Silverstone called the Kind Diet. All about eating Vegan and the great benefits of a plant based diet. WAIT! for all you anti-vegan or dinner MUST have meat peeps... I'm not going to go on a rant or try and convert you ... I just saying I was inspired by trying more meat free dishes... done!
All in all, one day I was trolling the internet and came across this recipe for Squash and Spinach Risotto... I had a spare squash and spinach that was day or two from going bad so I thought why not...
Click here for Squash and Spinach Recipe by Rachel Cotterill
WOW WAS I IMPRESSED.... with under 10 ingredients ... and nothing fancy (I actually just naturally had everything in the kitchen... which like never happens!!)... I even left out the parsley leaves and it still turned out fab...
even more so.... MY 2 YEAR OLD TODDLER LOVED IT! She told me "this is a yummy delicious dinner.. thank you mommy!" wait... WHAT!?!? We aren't arguing over dinner and bribing her with every sweet under the sun to get her to eat just 3 damn bits of dinner. HALLELUJAH JESUS!
this bad boy recipe is now on my regular list of eats....
BONUS: toddler loves, meat eating husband didn't complain, it used NORMAL, CHEAP ingredients, it took less than an hour to make, it's healthy and its VEGAN!!!
Wednesday, January 25, 2017
Why the SouthWest?
My husband and I have been dreaming of moving to the Southwest for over a year now. It's crazy how having a family of two small girls (2 years and 5 months) and needing to make sure we can provide for them has ridiculously slowed down our ability to dive into adventures. Less then 5 years ago when I wanted to do something new I need only pack a back and buy a ticket... but now its a slow process of MAKING A PLAN.
So we have about 4 to 6 months before we would like to be moving to the Southwest. We love everything we are hearing about this area of England ... cfbc nc nn gn g g hhgfrhwfd ..... sorry about that... my little girl saw mommy doing something "extra important" on the computer and wanted to help... "just one more mummy"
bxgxbbabg ggggggggx z ... Ok that is enough from her and a sign I need to wrap up..
But I just wanted to start documenting our little adventure Southwest by keeping this blog as record of all the ups and downs of moving our family from one place to another... specifically from the East of England to the Southwest.
Loads of people keep asking us Why? Why would we want to make this great big move to a whole new place with two little kids when we already have a good life established for ourselves right where we are now?
Both my husband and I would say mainly "For the Adventure". We felt like we wanted to go on an adventure together and moving our family to the Southwest would be just that.... we also LOVE what we are hearing about the Southwest. I am a native born American and my husband, though he was born in the Southwest, mainly grew up in Essex. We have travelled, just a bit, in the Southwest and we love the beaches, campgrounds, community and friendliness we meet. We never have met anyone from the Southwest that doesn't have something good to say about the area.
Grant it, we won't be a stones throw away from London like we are now... but there is something really exciting about moving to the Southwest. We really want to buy a home and the housing prices seem a lot more in our price range there. We also love the idea of maybe growing more of our own food and love the natural, fresh vibe we get when we are down there. It really feels like it will be possible for us to build and make a lovely home for our family.
We also would love our kids to be adventurous and outdoorsy... which again we feel if we are around places where they can go camping or surfing or diving or horse back riding that they will have easier access to get into these things (if they so desire).
I need to be near to an international airport, for the ease of my international family coming to visit and also for the comfort :) Exeter Airport and Bristol Airport are just as near to us now as Heathrow our main international airport.
All in all this blog is going to be a written documentary of what it takes to move our family and also the grand experience of settling into the new place and how we come to call the Southwest home. I'm looking to post tips for moving, money saving ideas, points of interest in the Southwest, homes and neighbourhoods I like in the southwest, how I go about job hunting and the lessons I learn along the way.
I feel excited to really be proud of where we come from, I feel inspired to make the Southwest the base of where we grow our family, I look forward to the adventure of discovering great spaces and places in the southwest and I am thrilled to add some of what we are passionate about into the area.
Back when Steve (my hubby) and I were dating long distance (he was in Colchester, Essex, England and I was in Seattle, Washington USA) we used to love taking pictures of sunsets and sending them to each other via email and social media saying cheesy things like "I can't wait to catch this sunset with you" "it will be so good to get bored watching the sunset with you" or "this sunset is for you"... it became out little thing... a way of saying to each other how we loved being together and we were both dreaming and hoping great things for our future together. So, it seemed fit to call this little space of the internet after our love for catching sunsets and giving them to each other as we continue to dream new adventures for our family.
So we have about 4 to 6 months before we would like to be moving to the Southwest. We love everything we are hearing about this area of England ... cfbc nc nn gn g g hhgfrhwfd ..... sorry about that... my little girl saw mommy doing something "extra important" on the computer and wanted to help... "just one more mummy"
bxgxbbabg ggggggggx z ... Ok that is enough from her and a sign I need to wrap up..
But I just wanted to start documenting our little adventure Southwest by keeping this blog as record of all the ups and downs of moving our family from one place to another... specifically from the East of England to the Southwest.
Loads of people keep asking us Why? Why would we want to make this great big move to a whole new place with two little kids when we already have a good life established for ourselves right where we are now?
Both my husband and I would say mainly "For the Adventure". We felt like we wanted to go on an adventure together and moving our family to the Southwest would be just that.... we also LOVE what we are hearing about the Southwest. I am a native born American and my husband, though he was born in the Southwest, mainly grew up in Essex. We have travelled, just a bit, in the Southwest and we love the beaches, campgrounds, community and friendliness we meet. We never have met anyone from the Southwest that doesn't have something good to say about the area.
Grant it, we won't be a stones throw away from London like we are now... but there is something really exciting about moving to the Southwest. We really want to buy a home and the housing prices seem a lot more in our price range there. We also love the idea of maybe growing more of our own food and love the natural, fresh vibe we get when we are down there. It really feels like it will be possible for us to build and make a lovely home for our family.
We also would love our kids to be adventurous and outdoorsy... which again we feel if we are around places where they can go camping or surfing or diving or horse back riding that they will have easier access to get into these things (if they so desire).
I need to be near to an international airport, for the ease of my international family coming to visit and also for the comfort :) Exeter Airport and Bristol Airport are just as near to us now as Heathrow our main international airport.
All in all this blog is going to be a written documentary of what it takes to move our family and also the grand experience of settling into the new place and how we come to call the Southwest home. I'm looking to post tips for moving, money saving ideas, points of interest in the Southwest, homes and neighbourhoods I like in the southwest, how I go about job hunting and the lessons I learn along the way.
I feel excited to really be proud of where we come from, I feel inspired to make the Southwest the base of where we grow our family, I look forward to the adventure of discovering great spaces and places in the southwest and I am thrilled to add some of what we are passionate about into the area.
Back when Steve (my hubby) and I were dating long distance (he was in Colchester, Essex, England and I was in Seattle, Washington USA) we used to love taking pictures of sunsets and sending them to each other via email and social media saying cheesy things like "I can't wait to catch this sunset with you" "it will be so good to get bored watching the sunset with you" or "this sunset is for you"... it became out little thing... a way of saying to each other how we loved being together and we were both dreaming and hoping great things for our future together. So, it seemed fit to call this little space of the internet after our love for catching sunsets and giving them to each other as we continue to dream new adventures for our family.
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